Systems Test

What if tomorrow – all the words stopped?

What if I was reduced to typing the alphabet, over and over again?

What if the words’ departure wasn’t a sudden catastrophe? What if the words slowed to a trickle but didn’t quite stop, just turned muddy and stagnant like a runoff stream in high summer. It begins with this next sentence I can’t quite grasp. 

Or what if it’s already begun, and no one has told me. “Are you going to?” “Should we?” “Naaaah… Maybe tomorrow. Maybe it will have completely stopped by then and we won’t have to.” “Oh I like that plan!”

Maybe the words just lose their savor over time. Maybe it just means less and less to finish a piece of writing. I’ll end up like a heroin addict chasing the dragon: never as good as that first time, that first shot of pleasure that sat up, licked its chops and growled,”Do it again.”

Maybe it will stop once every part of me worth saving is plastered to the page. They can keep the collection pinned to cotton under glass, a museum display or coffee table curiosity for hipsters.

Maybe I should get a grip, take a walk, put my inner drama queen back in a padded room, and get back to work.

After all, this was just a systems test. The words clearly haven’t stopped yet.

Published by Marushka

I dream curiosity and write words that change brains.

2 thoughts on “Systems Test

  1. I hope they continue because I really enjoy your daily musings! Not to brown-nose but your posts inspire me to probe and question and think more deeply about the world around me. Plus you have a wonderful command of language. You’d be doing the world a grave disservice if the words were to dry up 🙃

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    1. Thank you for your words – they mean a very great deal 🙂 . I made this post more as a “what if?” exercise, determined to probe all the places that make my writing ego say “ouch!” It’s a long list! So there will be a few upcoming posts with titles like “Am I A Writer If No One Reads?” Melodramatic fare, to be sure *crocodile tear* but hopefully of both interest and entertainment value. As always, thank you so much for reading and sharing your thoughts!

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